Great.. One day before V day... I've finally plucked up all my courage to go steady wif her. How wonderful. Rejected. I've already spent 15 yrs of my life alone during V day. Guess it's goin to be my 16th this year. How pathetic. Luckily I have Choon Wee to spend my day wif...

See those couples on the roads and streets. How loving. I've always wondered when I'll ever become one of them. Maybe it'll not happen at all. Why.. I've never encountered love b4. Perhaps I had, but I've no idea how love is like. How it comes about. How it works. How does it feel to love and be loved. My heart's somehow dead... It shows no symptons of being in love. Thus I can't trust my heart at all.. I only rely on my instinct and that feeling I have on others......

All this while I've beening look for someone whom I can realli share my troubles and problems with... Someone I can realli spend my life with... Someone I can realli rely on.. Someone I can realli show all my love to and be loved conversely... Someone I can realli give up everything I have for.. Yet my heart never once given me me respond.. Not even a hint... Dead as ever! But I do noe, I have the feeling for her... The feeling of longliness wif her... Sadly. Rejected.

I actually have another paragraph of vulgarities to say, but for the sake of no anti-climax, I'll leave it to tmr... Well.. I've endured a day... No diffierence if I endure for another 24hrs...