Math P1: 60.5/100
P2: 71/100
Total: 66/100 (Grade B)
Remark: Ok I noe I shouldnt able attaining a B, I'm very disappointed at this result too, but getting sick on the first day of prelim wasn't an excuse rite... or was it? haha... Though it's the highest in my class tsk tsk... I'll still do my best and get my A in the coming 'A' lvl de! =)

Computing P1: 61/100
P2: 80/120
Total: 64/100 (Grade C)
Remark: Ok the fact that it's 1 mark from Grade B makes me very angry, but then come to think of it, I never even thought I can get as high as 64 though... so I should juz accept it as it is bah haha... 64's already very blessful rite... shouldnt de cun jin chi haha... Still... at least this result tells me one thing: Computing is one subject I can realli count on for an A grade =) so this shall be my second Grade A hehe...

Physics P1: 15/30
P2: 42/90
P3: 59/110
Total: 50/100 (Grade D)
Remark: ha... same result as my Mid-year... even after forgoing my Econs to mug for Physics... sobz... As usual, it's P3 that pulls me up again... Still remember my mid-year I got 11 for P1, which was so horrendous (though 15/30 now still seems horrible too) But I noe... I'm nearly there le... juz a little push for P3 and more consistent revision for P1, and everything should fall in place for P2! haha... I'm prepared for a A or B for physics k... (hahas i'm so confident :P)

Econs P1: 15/30 =.=
P2: 29/50 (11/20 DRQ, 18/30 CS)
P3: 26/75
Total: 46/100 (Grade E)
Remark: Yup finally to the last subject of mine... one that I COMPLETELY NEGLECTED for the prelim paper... haha.. I realli went into the exam hall wif not even a full 1 hour of revision for Econs... Though sad to see such miserable grade, especially only 15/30 for P1 (I'm sure my tutor's extremely disappointed in me hais...) but actually able to get an E without even studying is considered a miracle le rite... so I'm still hopeful that if I study... it shouldnt be anything less than a C =)

GP P1: 21/50
P2: 23.5/50
Total: 45/100(Grade C6)
Remark: woohoo!! see that!! I pass my GP!! Haha!! But if u see closely, it's supposed to be 44.5(add P1 and P2 together) which means that I'm supposed to fail... sobz... but haha... well... I'll try not to make such a pathetic score for 'A' lvl haha.. TRY!! haha...

If ye realise.. I got BCDE haha... wat crap, everything but an A... duno how to break this to my parents.. hais...

Lastly... To someone: Congrats there for making such great leap in ur GP result... when I heard bout ur GP score from someone.. I was totally stunned and shocked to do or say anything... Honestly I really couldn't believe u improved by nearly like... 18 marks? I was realli in a daze upon hearing that for nearly the rest of the day since... 11am!! haha... maybe I'm realli underestimating you... which I sincerely apologise for that... shouldn't have doubted ye... here I congrats ye once again for ur improvement, and sincerely wish ye all the best for ur 'A' lvl too~ I'll still do my best to beat ye! haha...

I've always wanted to say... but couldnt bring myself to tell anyone... that actually... I've 2 persons in mind whom I cant decide to rest my heart solely upon... They make my life complicated and near complete... But I dun regard them as true love at all though... for I noe I'm realli too young and too ignorant to grasp that meaning... so I've always been regarding them as someone very very very and extremely important in my life... This very conflict.. yeah maybe I shouldny be conflicting at all.. juz let them be 2 very important ppl in my life... but will that be too selfish of me?

And today... one of them confided to me how miserable and upset she was... it seems that stress has been piling and piling and apparently overshadowed her completely le... academic stress and parents' expectations have nearly crippled her today... Thank god I was there for her... and so grateful she told me how she felt... else I nvr would noe she's been feeling so terrible all along... And I promised her.. if she has faith in me, I'd do all I can to make sure that she does her best, and even over her limites for her exams... even if I have to sacrifice.. for she's so important in my life rite now... I cant bear to leave her in a lurch at a time like this...

I admit I'm biased heh... but I also wanna say... I wont leave anyone else I noe in a lurch too... I'll not wanna see anyone I noe fall before me... if u peeps realli need help, I'm realli there for u, as long as... u all have faith in me, and most importantly, willing to be there... for me... I need frens, more than anything I can think of... someone will noe wat i mean haha... Let me have a chance to help u peeps k haha, at least a chance to let my existence be known haha... (now i sound so weird... like I'm beggin ppl to find me for help =x but truthfully, I wanna help as much as I can de hor...)

wonderful.. I fell sick on the first day of school, and oso the first day of the prelim period... There goes my Computing Paper 1, and also my favourite subject, Math Paper 1. I couldnt even complete that paper.. how encouraging... It's always the Math papers that pulled me thru any tough examination period... and now that Math's not doin anything to help me(worse, pull me down further), I might as well juz die. -.-

It's like... when bad things start happening on u, they keep coming in lots and hordes and throngs and swarms... now especially at this period of time when I'm so sick till I cant absorb any little details into my brain, I juz feel like bursting. The more i look at the past year prelim papers, the stronger the urge to juz pick up anything I see in my way and throw. I'm already goin "ARGH! and "AH!!" and "KAOS!" and all sorts of offensive comments at home, almost made my sis deaf wif all the shoutings and bellowing, and I simply cant take it! Maybe I'd have been better if I'm in my prime condition, but wth, sick so suddenly, trying to test my limit sia...

Want to find someone to complain to oso dun have... why my life suddenly seem so lonely... or maybe I've always been lonely... Damn the sickness.. Damn the prelim.... Damn myself...

And there I have my dad who juz came in and said "why u still playing the comp? prelim's here and u're still playing. U're not supposed to play anymore!" !$%^*(!^#*(@&^!!!! Damn it.. In the first place where do u see me playing? Loggin on to my blog and msn's playing!? Always been like this... everytime think that the comp's meant for playing. Doesnt he ever noe that my phy prelim papers and other useful notes are in my comp! Computing! everything's in the comp! and he thinks i'm playing! Oh fine! Then how u wan me to study computing!? Tear down the comp and slowly examine the parts before assembling them again!?

How long do I have to endure... I dun even noe wat I'm enduring... Juz feel like screaming... someone bring me somewhere far from any human being and let my scream till my lungs burst, anyone? hais...

It hurts to see us part after this year... for very likely, we'll nvr see each other again...
It hurts to see no closeness without the class... for we seldom have time to foster our class bond together...
It hurts to think that frens from sec, 1st 3 months etc are closer to u than ur current classmates now...
It hurts to see all these and yet u cant do anything to change them...
It hurts to feel hurt....

It hurts to hear u say u have no frens in school... cuz that means u nvr treated me as one...
It hurts to hear u say u have no frens in school... cuz I've been trying to be one...
It truly hurts to hear u say that... can u feel it...