yah... my friends did say I seem like a happier person than before... If i'm goin to look back at myself, comparing myself between the past and present... I think I've changed... Between secondary and JC, I've indeed changed... but that's besides the point, the subject's in JC life... Am I leading a sad life in my JC 1st year? sadder than JC 2nd year? Honestly, I dun think so...

WHY? Last year, I had so much fun... I get to noe a bunch of great friends both in 1st 3 months and current NYJC... There wasn't such a thing called "miscommunication", nor was there any problems in terms of social relationships and interaction. BY RIGHT, I should be happy... But of cuz there's times I'm still as moody as ever.. hahas.. As for now... many things frustrate me... academical problem(A lvl coming~ stress ahhh~), social problems(too many), economical problems(no demand for a person like me ~.~), political problem(stupid GE, I cant juz understand politics... that's why it frustrates me), fitness problem(I cant pass NAPFA T.T) and emotional problems(I cant help but feel depressed and miserable over this naturally). Can someone realli understands wat I truly want? hais...

But well.. I have to agree wif my friends a little though, that I do feel happy, and I realli mean HAPPY, this year too. Hehe.. some people juz has the ability to make me happy with any small things they do... be it deliberately or unintentionally. ^^

And.. haha.. juz by thinking about wat some ppl has done.. U can see a big y=x^2 curve on my face of radius 6cm(is that big? juz an approximate). And if It's realli something happy... I'll get so excited I'd actually LOL(literally) or hop around in my room hehe... and yeah, I dun remember myself doin such a thing last year lolx...

But come to think of it... Am I realli happy at these point of times... or did I hit rock bottom that I feel happy even as a slight rise in my mood?

這篇，我是寫給我一個和我一樣是雙子座的朋友的。

讀了她的blog，也聼過了她最近的煩惱，向我哭訴，向我請教（也不算請教啦，我也沒什麽可教的=.=），才知道，原來她也和我一樣，為不該煩惱的事所牽制。

我能説的是，我們太容易被自己身邊的人影響了。尤其是我們看上的，他們的每一舉一動，我們都會特別去注意。看久了，種種怪問題就會出現在我們腦裏。我相信多數人看了她的blog后，都認爲這不是什麽大事，或她未免想太多了。但我老實說，這一點也不誇張。我的經歷，和她一樣。在我們心裏，這迷茫，這眷戀，這猶豫不定的心情，很實在。太實在了，使我們覺得很痛苦，也很納悶。我不否認有時這些情感讓我們覺得很甜蜜，時不時會換來我們的一個微笑。但多數時間，我們都很不愉快，心裏縂像被一樣很重的東西所拖住。

你們一定會問，那爲何不放下它？很簡單，我們辦不到。我們雙子座，就是太容易接受，不懂也不會放下。最重要的是，我們捨不得放下。對我們來説，一點一滴，都很重要，不是說放就放的下。

我相信雙子座的人應該認同我說的吧？

我也和這朋友一樣，喜歡上這麽一個人，卻不知那人對我的態度，時好時坏的，搞得我覺得很困擾。我也已走到了這一步，就是選擇繼續往我該走的方向走下去，別再徘徊了。但我比較像是在爬行一樣，走的特別慢，因爲我還是會不由自主地往後看，看那令我變得這麽憂鬱的始作俑者。

最後，我想對我朋友說，事情，往往就是充滿無限的不確定。我們，儘管很困難，也需要努力別被自己的情感給壓制住。不管事情變得這麽樣，路，還是要走下去。我們應該給自己一點時間平衡自己，但一切之後，該向前看。（我也在努力中^^)

P.S: 不敢相信我會出現在你夢中…想我哦~？^^ 我該覺得很榮幸吧哈哈… 保重哦~