This is actually a continuation of my post below... Juz wanted to say how I'm feeling and goin thru now... NYJC juz had CCA bazaar juz now, and I actually had a CCA in mind. A CCA that's slack and interesting to me, IT Club. But unfortunately, there isn't such a CCA in NYJC. So I had to go hunt for another CCA to join. What's worse than having no IT Club in NYJC is, There isn't an alternative which is slack and interesting enough for me to join...

Great... So I ended up choosing Biz Club, which is basically Entrepreneur or Business Club. Slack is slack but I dun realli have the interest in it. Guess I may not last long there. There's another problem now. I doubt I can get into Biz Club anyway, cuz the sign-up form's as long as 3 pages, which is about 50 students!? Yeah... I'm one of the last few there... So the chance is so slim... Then wat other CCA can I get into?? Badminton? My interest but I doubt they'll want me. Bowling? It's so expensive, my parents wont allow me. Choir!? HA...HA... My voice definitely wont make it, but if there's something like KBOX Club, hehe... I'll definitely be the first to sign up without fail. I still cant believe they don't have IT Club. There aren't any of the CCAs I wanna join too, Pool Club, Bridge Club... They have nothing! T.T

So this choosing of CCA's one reason for my discomfort, and oso THE reason I want to elaborate for now. Other reasons I guess is all written in My Reflection which is below this post. Like no idea what course I should take for university, whether I can make it for GP, can I take the stress in JC etc etc... Right now, I'm staying in NYJC due to computer engineering. But that may change, and if that ever happens, I'll have to resort to extreme measures... Don't ask me wat measures, cuz I have absolutely no idea what measures I can take... Suicide?? extreme enough...