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Thursday, July 28, 2005

这感觉……

……随风而去,却弃风而留。像天上的云儿,在心里漂浮着,一会儿这,一会儿到那,始终无法散去。它也像大海一样,一会儿强烈得有如惊涛骇浪般,无法阻止,也无能自我,一会儿却又平静的很。这些起伏,这些变化,丝毫没征兆,也没理由,随时一来就使我沉迷于云儿,海儿之中。

在平常之时,没烦恼,没困扰,平静地漂浮着。但每当任何事发生时,就连一点芝麻绿豆的事,第一个念头,第一个反应,第一种感觉,突然在我深处自然而起。无法控制,无法忘记,都想见一面,这苦……好难受……好无助……

这么久了……云儿依然漂浮着,海儿依然漂流着,我也依然承受着……我心知自己的能力,自己的一切,根本没这权力,这资格拥有这云儿大海,这大自然永无止境的力量,这难受又成日朝思暮想得到心情……但它却又像流沙一样,越去挣扎,就越陷越深。我已接近无法自拔的地步了吗?就这样了吗?……

我不否认这感觉带给我一丝希望,一丝甜密,但单发面的情感,只能唤来悲伤与痛苦。既然不能双方体会的话,那何苦留恋于此啊……哈哈……嘿……说的容易,忘的困难啊……虽希望能让彼此感受得到,但无法勉强……算了吧……

许久……许久后……

啊!!为何你三番五次戏弄我!这很有趣,很好玩吗!?放了我吧!我不能一直承受这一切啊!饶了我吧……这样做对你有何好处……无非是想看我发狂,变疯罢了嘛……要不你成全我,要不你杀了我!我不想再做你的傀儡了!长痛不如短痛,别再折磨我了……天意弄人……天意弄人啊!!

OsirisZ view his life at 7/28/2005 03:23:00 PM 1 comments




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