I've always tried to avoid loneliness... simply toking to frens, playing games, blogging, listen to music etc etc... Cuz I fear this weird feeling I experience when I'm alone... Not matter how hard I tried to avoid... I still face it again..

It's a kind of feeling that make me lose myself. I feel empty. It's a terrible feeling I've no idea how to describe... So I'm.. as usual, making use of blogging to focus on this blog and to get rid of that feeling... Frankly.. I nearly broke down to tears when I felt that... Scary heh... hahas... I juz couldnt control myself.. all sort of thoughts came into my mind... everything's in a turmoil to me... Juz couldnt handle everything... fear of the unknown... Juz cant help it...

I duno how to end this blog err... but definitely I felt better after I wrote this... Or else most probably I would have gone whacking my fists at the wall for a couple of mins... Sometimes I feel I can juz go to a deserted grassland or facing the big ocean and shout my lungs out. It must be a great feeling isnt it...