I've always wanted to say... but couldnt bring myself to tell anyone... that actually... I've 2 persons in mind whom I cant decide to rest my heart solely upon... They make my life complicated and near complete... But I dun regard them as true love at all though... for I noe I'm realli too young and too ignorant to grasp that meaning... so I've always been regarding them as someone very very very and extremely important in my life... This very conflict.. yeah maybe I shouldny be conflicting at all.. juz let them be 2 very important ppl in my life... but will that be too selfish of me?

And today... one of them confided to me how miserable and upset she was... it seems that stress has been piling and piling and apparently overshadowed her completely le... academic stress and parents' expectations have nearly crippled her today... Thank god I was there for her... and so grateful she told me how she felt... else I nvr would noe she's been feeling so terrible all along... And I promised her.. if she has faith in me, I'd do all I can to make sure that she does her best, and even over her limites for her exams... even if I have to sacrifice.. for she's so important in my life rite now... I cant bear to leave her in a lurch at a time like this...

I admit I'm biased heh... but I also wanna say... I wont leave anyone else I noe in a lurch too... I'll not wanna see anyone I noe fall before me... if u peeps realli need help, I'm realli there for u, as long as... u all have faith in me, and most importantly, willing to be there... for me... I need frens, more than anything I can think of... someone will noe wat i mean haha... Let me have a chance to help u peeps k haha, at least a chance to let my existence be known haha... (now i sound so weird... like I'm beggin ppl to find me for help =x but truthfully, I wanna help as much as I can de hor...)